I wish, I wish.
I wish for many things.
I pray and I pray and I pray but I can't get through.
My hopes have been on this roller coaster ride for years now, and I still don't have an answer. Not yet, Lord? Maybe I should just be still. I should.
Maybe I should just trust for once. Maybe I should open my heart to You.
But You know, it's not about me. Deep in my heart, it never was.
There isn't anything I wouldn't give for this one prayer. If I knew how it is to trust with everything I've got, then maybe I'll finally get an answer. Maybe, just maybe, my prayers will be answered.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Emotionally charged, just like an Adele song.
I am incredibly emotionally worked up today, as I have been for the past week or so.
I'm not even gonna bother typing properly coz' I'm just so tired. 4.32am here. I guess I only have myself to blame for staying up this late. Again.
Have you ever noticed that your thoughts just start to run wild the later you stay up? It's as if the part of your brain that keeps you sane and in check just decided to call it a night and let your retarded, over-thinking side dominate. And for the past few nights, I have been bombarded with thoughts of how the people around me have hurt me in the past. It's strange how I remember certain events that still affect me till today, even though some of them happened way back when. All those hurtful words that were meant as jokes suddenly don't seem that funny to me anymore. I've never been upfront about the things that hurt me, and so most (if not, all) of the people I know don't really know that I'm still quite sensitive to certain topics. I guess there's a downside to keeping a straight face all the time, even when I feel like they've gone too far. On most days, I can usually take in a lot of teasing and would probably throw it back at them twice as hard if I could, simply because I've learned not to take things so seriously.
But on days like this, I don't know why but I just can't help but feel a little taken for granted.
I don't know. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I've destroyed my brain cells staying up all night and have now been reduced to an unstable stick-like creature with dark circles that sweep the floor.
Sorry if all of this doesn't make any sense. Don't really have the energy to proof read. Don't really care to anyway.
I'm not even gonna bother typing properly coz' I'm just so tired. 4.32am here. I guess I only have myself to blame for staying up this late. Again.
Have you ever noticed that your thoughts just start to run wild the later you stay up? It's as if the part of your brain that keeps you sane and in check just decided to call it a night and let your retarded, over-thinking side dominate. And for the past few nights, I have been bombarded with thoughts of how the people around me have hurt me in the past. It's strange how I remember certain events that still affect me till today, even though some of them happened way back when. All those hurtful words that were meant as jokes suddenly don't seem that funny to me anymore. I've never been upfront about the things that hurt me, and so most (if not, all) of the people I know don't really know that I'm still quite sensitive to certain topics. I guess there's a downside to keeping a straight face all the time, even when I feel like they've gone too far. On most days, I can usually take in a lot of teasing and would probably throw it back at them twice as hard if I could, simply because I've learned not to take things so seriously.
But on days like this, I don't know why but I just can't help but feel a little taken for granted.
I don't know. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I've destroyed my brain cells staying up all night and have now been reduced to an unstable stick-like creature with dark circles that sweep the floor.
Sorry if all of this doesn't make any sense. Don't really have the energy to proof read. Don't really care to anyway.
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Back then
Have you ever wanted to just go back in time; just retrace your steps and relive every second of your past?
I'm sure we all have. I just seem to be doing that very often nowadays.
And it's not like I'm having an awful time where I am now. In fact, I'm living very comfortably here in Perth. Honestly, I have always felt very blessed to be here, to have met all of my wonderful friends and to have let myself experience and try things I've never bothered doing back home. I do love it here, but I can't help but look back once in a while. And when I do, I start to miss everything I once had. From the comfort of home; being surrounded by family and friends that I've known for almost a decade now, to getting out of that comfort zone and stepping into college life in Inti; experiencing freedom for the very first time with people that I will never forget. I miss it all and it's sad that every time I look back, the memories start to become more vague. If I had a chance, I would go back and just relive them so they would never fade.
I understand that life goes on and looking back ever so often will only leave me stagnant, but it's hard not to miss and yearn for the things that have made such a big impact in your life; things that make you smile every time you think about them.
Memories are there to remind us that life is worth living, that love is worth pursuing and that friendship is worth keeping. I will always remember those of you who have been such a big part of my life, especially those who have brought me closer to God. Because when I feel like I've lost my way, I think back to how I used to feel when I was close to Him.
And it's all thanks to you, all of you who were part of my journey before.
I'm sure we all have. I just seem to be doing that very often nowadays.
And it's not like I'm having an awful time where I am now. In fact, I'm living very comfortably here in Perth. Honestly, I have always felt very blessed to be here, to have met all of my wonderful friends and to have let myself experience and try things I've never bothered doing back home. I do love it here, but I can't help but look back once in a while. And when I do, I start to miss everything I once had. From the comfort of home; being surrounded by family and friends that I've known for almost a decade now, to getting out of that comfort zone and stepping into college life in Inti; experiencing freedom for the very first time with people that I will never forget. I miss it all and it's sad that every time I look back, the memories start to become more vague. If I had a chance, I would go back and just relive them so they would never fade.
I understand that life goes on and looking back ever so often will only leave me stagnant, but it's hard not to miss and yearn for the things that have made such a big impact in your life; things that make you smile every time you think about them.
Memories are there to remind us that life is worth living, that love is worth pursuing and that friendship is worth keeping. I will always remember those of you who have been such a big part of my life, especially those who have brought me closer to God. Because when I feel like I've lost my way, I think back to how I used to feel when I was close to Him.
And it's all thanks to you, all of you who were part of my journey before.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Another day, another chapter
I'm finding it hard to focus on studying now so just a quick update.
The end of the first half of my year in uni is almost over, with my final exams just a week away. I still find myself procrastinating a lot and having to beat myself up mentally in order to get my skinny butt seated still and my eyes locked and focused on the lecture notes. Doesn't last long though; 5-10 minutes tops and then my mind would wander elsewhere for a couple more minutes. This basically goes on for a while until I get fed up and decide to look for random videos on Youtube or obsessively check my Twitter and Tumblr for updates. Much like right now. Except that I've decided to update this sad excuse for a blog.
I'm honestly finding the units pretty tough this year, with the insane amount of material we are expected to absorb and the sheer depth of the topics. I'm not saying it's impossible because, honestly, anyone can snag a HD or two with these units, as long as they have enough self-discipline to study; which is something I've always lacked, as you can see. I'm hoping I'll get a decent mark though. I've never been a HD kind of student and Ds are starting to get more and more out of reach. Oh well. Just have to do what I can.
I think that's enough self pity for today. Toodles.
The end of the first half of my year in uni is almost over, with my final exams just a week away. I still find myself procrastinating a lot and having to beat myself up mentally in order to get my skinny butt seated still and my eyes locked and focused on the lecture notes. Doesn't last long though; 5-10 minutes tops and then my mind would wander elsewhere for a couple more minutes. This basically goes on for a while until I get fed up and decide to look for random videos on Youtube or obsessively check my Twitter and Tumblr for updates. Much like right now. Except that I've decided to update this sad excuse for a blog.
I'm honestly finding the units pretty tough this year, with the insane amount of material we are expected to absorb and the sheer depth of the topics. I'm not saying it's impossible because, honestly, anyone can snag a HD or two with these units, as long as they have enough self-discipline to study; which is something I've always lacked, as you can see. I'm hoping I'll get a decent mark though. I've never been a HD kind of student and Ds are starting to get more and more out of reach. Oh well. Just have to do what I can.
I think that's enough self pity for today. Toodles.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
3 years and all you get is a stupid blog post. You're welcome.
Hey there :) It's been a while. And I know no one will ever read this blog ever again ever since I abandoned it a few years back, but heck, here's to the good old days.
I've been through a lot these past few years and I accept the way I turned out; definitely different from how I was back then. But I can't help but want to go back. The nostalgia I feel every time I read old blog posts or browse through pictures from way back when, makes me want to cry. Every single time. What is it about those days that I love and miss so much?
I believe it's because back then, I lived. I lived life doing the things I love with the people I love. I skipped school, played around during exam months and didn't study for nuts. Honestly, I wasn't a bad kid even though I did those things. I just prioritized friends over studies. And life was good. Life was fun and lived how I wanted it to and I can honestly say, I look back with no regrets (even though all my exam results were terrible. Stay in school, kids. And do your homework).
What's life if you live it with no heart? Ten years from now, I want to look back and actually miss Perth and Uni the way I miss Kuching and Miri. It's never too late to start living while you're still breathing. And boy, do I want to start.
xoxo (are they still doing this on blogs? lol),
Grace :)
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Goodbye :)
Well I'm leaving in 12 hours. I won't be updating while I'm there though. Sorry :\
This blog is DEAD D:
*sobs* see you all when I get back to Miri. And thanks to Kristine and Sarah for the dedication posts :)
p/s: To the puak: I'll miss you guys loads when I leave :( Ciaoz!
This blog is DEAD D:
*sobs* see you all when I get back to Miri. And thanks to Kristine and Sarah for the dedication posts :)
p/s: To the puak: I'll miss you guys loads when I leave :( Ciaoz!
Saturday, April 19, 2008
David Cook- Always Be My Baby
David Cook rocks. Best arrangement for Mariah Carey week :)
Note: If it doesn't appear, click on the invisible box once.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
22nd post. Sad.
I haven't blogged in more than a month. I wonder if anyone still reads this blog :\
Anyways, Sarah's back :) She was supposed to come back on 6th of April, but she came back earlier for the JPA interview ( You'll get it lah, moi. Don't worry :) )
Sarah: Hello?
Me: Hello?
Sarah: Hellooo?
Me: Uhh...
Sarah: You know who is this or not?
Me: Um... Sarah?
Sarah: Yeah HEHEHEHEEHEHE! Look at the phone number!
Me: Ha?
Sarah: The phone number! What am I using to call you?
Me: Um.. house phone- OMG you're back?!
Sarah: (laughs excitedly) Yeah~
Damn her for surprising me like that :P We actually had a sleepover at Cat's house and I invited her to come and surprise Cat and Pol, but she was tired and she had stuff to prepare for the interview that Tuesday. Ah well, we managed to surprise Cat and Pol anyway :) We went to visit the band and stuff (no comment) and went out with Pol, Cat and Wan 3 days in a row. Fuyoh. Damn tired lah after that. But it was worth it. We had lots of fun :) Met up with Lydia on the third day. She's so cantik lah. I want her nose :( We watched Spiderwick. It was er... kinda cute I guess, but the acting was pretty bad. Shortly after that we camwhored and Lydia gave us a massage. She learned the technique from weeks of hairwashing at Michael's salon :D We went to the beach on the second day and soaked our knees in the water. The water was surprisingly super clear. When we were knee-deep in the water, we could still see the sand beneath our feet. Omg. Tanjung is finally oil and muck free :) As we soaked our feet in the clear clear Tanjung waters ( Jordan, dun jealous, ya? :) ), we talked about the past and how we used to have so much fun in a big group, throwing each other into the water, getting soaked from head to toe and laughing till our sides hurt.
I miss my friends :( They're the only ones who can make me laugh at their stupid theories and sarcasm because it's just so ridiculous. They're the only ones who offer hugs when I feel down. They're the only ones who can get me out of my comfort zone, act like an idiot and not care about what other people think. Hopefully by the end of the year, we'd all be together again, all 13 of us, making lame jokes that only we laugh at and singing stupid songs that we made up with our 'creativity'. Ish. Miss you guys :(
Suddenly lost my mood to blog. Ugh. Now I can't wait to go to Inti. The faster the better.
God bless.
Anyways, Sarah's back :) She was supposed to come back on 6th of April, but she came back earlier for the JPA interview ( You'll get it lah, moi. Don't worry :) )
Sarah: Hello?
Me: Hello?
Sarah: Hellooo?
Me: Uhh...
Sarah: You know who is this or not?
Me: Um... Sarah?
Sarah: Yeah HEHEHEHEEHEHE! Look at the phone number!
Me: Ha?
Sarah: The phone number! What am I using to call you?
Me: Um.. house phone- OMG you're back?!
Sarah: (laughs excitedly) Yeah~
Damn her for surprising me like that :P We actually had a sleepover at Cat's house and I invited her to come and surprise Cat and Pol, but she was tired and she had stuff to prepare for the interview that Tuesday. Ah well, we managed to surprise Cat and Pol anyway :) We went to visit the band and stuff (no comment) and went out with Pol, Cat and Wan 3 days in a row. Fuyoh. Damn tired lah after that. But it was worth it. We had lots of fun :) Met up with Lydia on the third day. She's so cantik lah. I want her nose :( We watched Spiderwick. It was er... kinda cute I guess, but the acting was pretty bad. Shortly after that we camwhored and Lydia gave us a massage. She learned the technique from weeks of hairwashing at Michael's salon :D We went to the beach on the second day and soaked our knees in the water. The water was surprisingly super clear. When we were knee-deep in the water, we could still see the sand beneath our feet. Omg. Tanjung is finally oil and muck free :) As we soaked our feet in the clear clear Tanjung waters ( Jordan, dun jealous, ya? :) ), we talked about the past and how we used to have so much fun in a big group, throwing each other into the water, getting soaked from head to toe and laughing till our sides hurt.
I miss my friends :( They're the only ones who can make me laugh at their stupid theories and sarcasm because it's just so ridiculous. They're the only ones who offer hugs when I feel down. They're the only ones who can get me out of my comfort zone, act like an idiot and not care about what other people think. Hopefully by the end of the year, we'd all be together again, all 13 of us, making lame jokes that only we laugh at and singing stupid songs that we made up with our 'creativity'. Ish. Miss you guys :(
Suddenly lost my mood to blog. Ugh. Now I can't wait to go to Inti. The faster the better.
God bless.
Monday, March 3, 2008
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Linky love trail o.O
This linky love trail rules:-When you got tagged, you have to add your name to people who had done the tag and and let the list grow!
DunnitLimadang.com
RamblingMoo.com
blogginginmypyjamas
StylewithPassion
ChinneeqDora-zooropazoo
BabyshernFarah (me)
Bani gundu
Frankensteina
Diyanazman
Najmyhana ni mo naiLindoshSlebetcepoterh
UmmYdayana
ELLE LIZA~
Scarlet Kiss
Sycosuchitrawoobee
ArcAngelD
Esther
Mandy
My Award-Winning Drama
Simply Grace
First name- Grace
Nickname- Lisa, Twig, Skinny, Tambebeh, etc.
Name you wish you had- Hmm... never really thought about that.
What do people normally mistake your name as- Allysa/Allisa/Allysha.
Birthplace- Limbang General Hospital.
Time of birth- 10 at night, I think.
Single or taken- Single.
Zodiac sign- Cancer.
Your appearance:
How tall are you- 160+ cm.
Wish you were taller? - Nah.
Eye colour- Dark brown.
Eye colour you want- Green ;)
Natural hair colour- Brown-ish black?
Current hair colour- Brown-ish black with copper highlights.
Short or long hair? - Shoulder length.
Ever dye your hair a bizzare colour? - Nope.
Curly, straight, wavy- Um it's straight on the top but when it reaches my shoulders it curls up.
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair- Form 2. Coloured it bright pink and orange. So neon 8D
Glasses or contacts- Contacts. Only wear specs at home.
Do you wear make up- Nope. Only eyeliner, lip gloss and mascara occasionally.
Ever had hair extensions?- Nope.
Paint your nails?- Used to.
In the opposite gender:
What colour eyes- Anything will do :)
What colour hair- Brunette.
Shy or outgoing?- Somewhere in the middle.
Looks or personality- More to personality.
Sexy or cute- Cute.
Serious or fun- Fun. Only serious when needed.
Older or younger than you- Older.
Broke someone's heart- I dunno. Hope not.
Wondered what's wrong with you? - I don't get this question.
Wish you were a prince/ princess- No.
Liked someone who's taken- Nope.
Shaved your head- No.
Been in Love- Probably.
Used chopsticks? - Yeah.
Sang in the mirror to yourself- I don't think so.
Favourites:
Flower - Roses. Deep red roses :)
Candy- Chocolates, I guess.
Song- Loads, but atm I guess 'Motion City Soundtrack- The Future Freaks Me Out'
Scent- I dunno.
Movie- LOTR TRILOGY :D
Singer- Too many. I listen to any genre.
Word- Ha? :D
Junk food- I dunno.
Website- I dunno D:
Lotion- Um... none?
Animals- Really fat cats *hugs*
Ever cried over someone?- Yeah.
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself? - Yeah. My weight lol.
Do you think you're attractive? - Honestly, no.
If you had to choose a fairytale for your life what would you choose? - Enchanted LAWL. How does she know~
Do you play any sports?- Badminton atm.
The rules:-Link to your tagger and post these rules.
List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people.
- Still runs around the house like a kid. I just did, actually :P
- Likes eating whipped cream right from the can.
- Loves music :)
- A banana.
- Kurus kering.
- Thinks anything furry, pink and glittery should be burned.
- Loves simplicity.
- Is turning 18 this year?
(I don't tag people :) )
DunnitLimadang.com
RamblingMoo.com
blogginginmypyjamas
StylewithPassion
ChinneeqDora-zooropazoo
BabyshernFarah (me)
Bani gundu
Frankensteina
Diyanazman
Najmyhana ni mo naiLindoshSlebetcepoterh
UmmYdayana
ELLE LIZA~
Scarlet Kiss
Sycosuchitrawoobee
ArcAngelD
Esther
Mandy
My Award-Winning Drama
Simply Grace
First name- Grace
Nickname- Lisa, Twig, Skinny, Tambebeh, etc.
Name you wish you had- Hmm... never really thought about that.
What do people normally mistake your name as- Allysa/Allisa/Allysha.
Birthplace- Limbang General Hospital.
Time of birth- 10 at night, I think.
Single or taken- Single.
Zodiac sign- Cancer.
Your appearance:
How tall are you- 160+ cm.
Wish you were taller? - Nah.
Eye colour- Dark brown.
Eye colour you want- Green ;)
Natural hair colour- Brown-ish black?
Current hair colour- Brown-ish black with copper highlights.
Short or long hair? - Shoulder length.
Ever dye your hair a bizzare colour? - Nope.
Curly, straight, wavy- Um it's straight on the top but when it reaches my shoulders it curls up.
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair- Form 2. Coloured it bright pink and orange. So neon 8D
Glasses or contacts- Contacts. Only wear specs at home.
Do you wear make up- Nope. Only eyeliner, lip gloss and mascara occasionally.
Ever had hair extensions?- Nope.
Paint your nails?- Used to.
In the opposite gender:
What colour eyes- Anything will do :)
What colour hair- Brunette.
Shy or outgoing?- Somewhere in the middle.
Looks or personality- More to personality.
Sexy or cute- Cute.
Serious or fun- Fun. Only serious when needed.
Older or younger than you- Older.
Broke someone's heart- I dunno. Hope not.
Wondered what's wrong with you? - I don't get this question.
Wish you were a prince/ princess- No.
Liked someone who's taken- Nope.
Shaved your head- No.
Been in Love- Probably.
Used chopsticks? - Yeah.
Sang in the mirror to yourself- I don't think so.
Favourites:
Flower - Roses. Deep red roses :)
Candy- Chocolates, I guess.
Song- Loads, but atm I guess 'Motion City Soundtrack- The Future Freaks Me Out'
Scent- I dunno.
Movie- LOTR TRILOGY :D
Singer- Too many. I listen to any genre.
Word- Ha? :D
Junk food- I dunno.
Website- I dunno D:
Lotion- Um... none?
Animals- Really fat cats *hugs*
Ever cried over someone?- Yeah.
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself? - Yeah. My weight lol.
Do you think you're attractive? - Honestly, no.
If you had to choose a fairytale for your life what would you choose? - Enchanted LAWL. How does she know~
Do you play any sports?- Badminton atm.
The rules:-Link to your tagger and post these rules.
List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people.
- Still runs around the house like a kid. I just did, actually :P
- Likes eating whipped cream right from the can.
- Loves music :)
- A banana.
- Kurus kering.
- Thinks anything furry, pink and glittery should be burned.
- Loves simplicity.
- Is turning 18 this year?
(I don't tag people :) )
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Goodbye, sabun phone.
A picture with the St Joe Kuching boys at Sarawak Plaza. Such a coincidence that we took that picture right in front of the Memory Lane store :)I've been waking up with band songs in my head again *sigh* Just miss those times so much. I'm an official St Joe Miri Band alumni now *does the alumni pose* Alumni :D I'm still crazy about band like I was when I was a band member and still talk about it just as much. Jordan's really sick of hearing us babble about band already hahaha. Well, sorry! :P Can't help it bah. Forever band members at heart ;)
Oh and my handphone was stolen just this Friday. Left it at GCM by accident at around noon and a bunch of kids stole it a few minutes/hours later. I just blocked the old sim card on Saturday morning so if you received any phone calls from my number from 12:30 pm (Friday) till 12:00pm (Saturday), that wasn't me. I repeat,
THAT WASN'T ME!
I got a new sim card with the same number though so it's safe to message or call. If you received a call from a bunch of guys (I think?), they are NOT my friends. Just the jerks who stole my phone. Pfft. So if you want to call or text me please leave your name because I lost all my contacts. Thank you.
Friday, February 1, 2008
Another sea creature gone :(
To my dearest mummy whale,
Till this day, I still haven't been able to figure out how you could have conceived me since you know, you're a lesbo whale and Jordan's a reigning gay Sea King. So I've come to accept the possibility that I'm either a lovechild or an adopted daughter. But I love you both all the same teehee :)So here's the dedication post I promised you. Knowing you ever since the beginning of Form 4 has been a blast for me. I've never known anyone as muka tebal and as loud as you. You have a way with people, being able to start a conversation with anyone you meet and I've always admired that about you. You have the ability to make anyone smile even though you've just had a bad day. I can always rely on you to give me advice or just to listen to my problems. You were one of the ones who really helped me get back on my feet again after what happened last year. Thanks for rooting me on and for telling me to be strong. And especially thanks for all your great big whale hugs. You are the softest chunk of meat that ever walked the earth haha (sounds kinda wrong but oh well). You never fail to make me smile with your crazy sense of humor :) Although you shoot bad words out of your mouth as much as Samo sometimes, you have a heart of gold and you really know how to care for your friends. You don't let people push you or any of your friends around (just found this out recently at the canteen during SPM haha. Remember? :P). I'm really glad to have you as one of my bestest friends ever :) Thanks for always being there for me and for always giving me that extra push whenever I feel lazy. We're all missing you already :( Come back as soon as you can, alright? Luv you always, my fellow sea creature :) Take care and God Bless :)
Twig and Whale...
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Saturday, January 12, 2008
No more sarcasm :(
We just sent Chris off yesterday. Didn't know we were gonna miss him so much :( It's suddenly so quiet nowadays without Belle talking about fashion, Charlene updating us on Korean dramas, Sarah's random shouting and Chris' sarcasm.
To Clezpo: All the best in Ipoh and tell us when you're back in Miri. Or we'll hunt you down ourselves. We know where you live >:)
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A work of art :)
To Clezpo: All the best in Ipoh and tell us when you're back in Miri. Or we'll hunt you down ourselves. We know where you live >:).jpg)
A work of art :)
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Tags.
Tagged AGAIN by Kristine.
1. Where were you at 3.02am this morning?
- At home, on my bed, sleeping away :)
2. What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
- Something.
3. Is the person you have a crush on older or younger than you?
- No comment.
4. What did you do last night?
- Watched my bro play DotA and watched some tv.
5. What do you hope to do this weekend?
- Hopefully I can finally make up my mind on which college to go to.
6. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
- I don't know.
7. What song are you listening too?
- Dashboard Confessionals- Stolen.
8. Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them?
- Yup.
9. Hows your heart lately?
- It's alright.
10. What were you doing at 7 a.m.?
- Still asleep.
11. What were you doing this afternoon at 12 p.m.?
- Still asleep haha.
12. What was the reason you last cried?
- No comment.
13. What was the last movie you saw in theaters?
- Enchanted. HOW DOES SHE KNOWWWWW~ damn song's still stuck in my head haha.
14. Have you ever driven without a license?
- Not really.
15. Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
- Pfft. All my friends are high. All the time haha.
16. How many red lights have you ran?
- I don't drive.
17. Have you ever cried while in the shower?
- Well of course.
18. Have you ever, in any way, betrayed by someone you trusted?
- Sort of.
19. When was the last time you were given roses?
- 2006 I think. A rose.
20. Is there anything you are craving for now?
- Cheese. Lots of it *drools*
21. Where did your last hug take place?
- I forgot.
22. Do people ever make stupid mistakes when spelling or saying your name?
- Ms. Loy 'Gless'. Grrrayse. Okay? Grrrayse.
23. Do you drink tea?
- Of course.
24. When was the last time you saw a cop?
- I saw a police car the other night though. Does that count?
25. Do you wet the toothbrush before the toohpaste?
- Yes.
26. Does someone like you?
- I don't know. Do YOU? :D
27. What do you hope to accomplish before the year ends?
- Get used to where I'm studying at this year.
28. Tag 5 people:
- No
- No
- No
- No
- And no :)
1. Where were you at 3.02am this morning?
- At home, on my bed, sleeping away :)
2. What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
- Something.
3. Is the person you have a crush on older or younger than you?
- No comment.
4. What did you do last night?
- Watched my bro play DotA and watched some tv.
5. What do you hope to do this weekend?
- Hopefully I can finally make up my mind on which college to go to.
6. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
- I don't know.
7. What song are you listening too?
- Dashboard Confessionals- Stolen.
8. Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them?
- Yup.
9. Hows your heart lately?
- It's alright.
10. What were you doing at 7 a.m.?
- Still asleep.
11. What were you doing this afternoon at 12 p.m.?
- Still asleep haha.
12. What was the reason you last cried?
- No comment.
13. What was the last movie you saw in theaters?
- Enchanted. HOW DOES SHE KNOWWWWW~ damn song's still stuck in my head haha.
14. Have you ever driven without a license?
- Not really.
15. Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
- Pfft. All my friends are high. All the time haha.
16. How many red lights have you ran?
- I don't drive.
17. Have you ever cried while in the shower?
- Well of course.
18. Have you ever, in any way, betrayed by someone you trusted?
- Sort of.
19. When was the last time you were given roses?
- 2006 I think. A rose.
20. Is there anything you are craving for now?
- Cheese. Lots of it *drools*
21. Where did your last hug take place?
- I forgot.
22. Do people ever make stupid mistakes when spelling or saying your name?
- Ms. Loy 'Gless'. Grrrayse. Okay? Grrrayse.
23. Do you drink tea?
- Of course.
24. When was the last time you saw a cop?
- I saw a police car the other night though. Does that count?
25. Do you wet the toothbrush before the toohpaste?
- Yes.
26. Does someone like you?
- I don't know. Do YOU? :D
27. What do you hope to accomplish before the year ends?
- Get used to where I'm studying at this year.
28. Tag 5 people:
- No
- No
- No
- No
- And no :)
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Another day, another friend gone.
Sarah Jane Eunice Chia Chen Nee,
What can I say about you? You've been one of my closest friends ever since Form 1. We've carpooled more than 100 times and have basically been to the same tuitions ever since I started Cikgu Hapizi's BM tuition class. This is supposed to be another dedication post, but I don't know where to start.Well, you know this story already haha. The first time I saw you was in Form 1 and as I sat next to Belle, you kept staring and staring and staring. My first impression of you was 'Why the hell is this weird sepet girl staring at me?' I never knew until you told me that you wondered why I - who was a very frail and emo looking at that time - was good friends with Belle. Strange, isn't it haha. Well, ever since the very 1st time we met you (me and Belle), we've sort of contaminated your once innocent mind with lots of swearing lah, dissing lah etc. SORRY :( But heck, you wouldn't be the Sarah we know now if you didn't learn from those past mistakes, right? :) Oh and I still haven't thanked you for asking me and Belle to join Band in Form 1. If it wasn't for you, we'd be ex-PBSM members now haha.
When I take a moment to try to recall the past, we had so many great memories together. The sketch book (The spies haha), the Form 2 dance, the orange books, the gatherings we had at the beach and so on. Sometimes I wish we could go back to those times, you know? To relive everything :) Especially in moments like these.
I can't list out everything on a single post, but for all the times you've been there for me, for all the times you stuck up for me, for all the times you didn't get mad because I kept getting distracted by the TV when you're asking me for advice on the phone, for all the times you tolerated my strange mood swings and especially for all the times I copied off your homework, I'd just like to say thank you :) Thanks for always being supportive in all that I do, for always slapping (literally slapping haha) sense into me, for cheering me up when I needed it the most and for knowing when to leave me to my thoughts. You are the only one that knows me inside out and the first secondary school friend to see me cry haha. Thanks for being the perky mischievous 'little sister' I never had, for being the one to always liven up a dull conversation, for being the crazy daredevil that never fails to make us smile but most of all, for being our best friend :)
So thank you for all you've done for us and especially for being a part of a group with the strangest mix of personalities. Yet we all still managed to hang on till the end, right? Haha.
Gonna miss you loads, moi. Take care in KL and try not to get lost, okay? :D
May God Bless you always :)
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Growing up bites.
Tis' the season to be jolly fa la la la la la la la la~
Not! D:
Although the Christmas season is supposed to fill everyone's hearts with joy and oodles and oodles of happiness and fun, I certainly don't feel that way. Don't get me wrong. I love Christmas. I love that it's finally here, but unfortunately I'm just not in a festive mood :(
Why, you ask?
Well, it's approaching the end of 2007 and the beginning of 2008. While primary and secondary students worry about their new shoes and new uniforms and books, we, the ex form fivers are watching friends leave sweet ol' Miri to continue their studies elsewhere. *sigh* Sometimes, I wish I had to go back to St Joe again next year. No joke :( I miss St Joe. I miss hanging out at the canteen during break time and purposely staying there until the juniors had to shoo us away. I miss hanging out at the PA room with my buddies and just chatting away while everyone else is suffering listening to school rules (which, I might add is repeated almost every week) during the assembly. I miss just sitting around in class with my friends and BS the day away. There are just so many things I miss about school, about good ol' St Joe Miri.
Ms. Belinda Wong Tze Veun a.k.a Ms. Bofobleb is moving tomorrow D: No Belle! Don't gooooo :(
Back in the pinafore days. The HORROR! D:
Not! D:
Although the Christmas season is supposed to fill everyone's hearts with joy and oodles and oodles of happiness and fun, I certainly don't feel that way. Don't get me wrong. I love Christmas. I love that it's finally here, but unfortunately I'm just not in a festive mood :(
Why, you ask?
Well, it's approaching the end of 2007 and the beginning of 2008. While primary and secondary students worry about their new shoes and new uniforms and books, we, the ex form fivers are watching friends leave sweet ol' Miri to continue their studies elsewhere. *sigh* Sometimes, I wish I had to go back to St Joe again next year. No joke :( I miss St Joe. I miss hanging out at the canteen during break time and purposely staying there until the juniors had to shoo us away. I miss hanging out at the PA room with my buddies and just chatting away while everyone else is suffering listening to school rules (which, I might add is repeated almost every week) during the assembly. I miss just sitting around in class with my friends and BS the day away. There are just so many things I miss about school, about good ol' St Joe Miri.
Ms. Belinda Wong Tze Veun a.k.a Ms. Bofobleb is moving tomorrow D: No Belle! Don't gooooo :(
Belinda:
Ahh... it's been a long journey for you, hasn't it? :) I've known you since... Primary 5? Haha we had so many memories together. You were by far the friendliest person I've ever met in Primary school (because you invited me to your house for Chinese New Year and for projects and stuff ^^) and the most daring. You were always the reliable one, always finishing your project in time and offering to lend us a helping hand when doing group work (Yes, I know me and Sarah are lazy bums :( ). That's just your nature and that's what made you the Belinda we know and love today :) So Belle, for all the times we've hurt you and made you distant yourself from us, we're so sorry. Let's just erase those awful memories, alright? :) but Belle, we just want you to know that you will always be one of the best band presidents ever in the history of St Joe Miri Marching Band, the most garang prefect in our prefectorial board (it's a good thing!), the most cantik and fashionable girl in our group, the most in-your-face chick we've ever met but most of all, the greatest friend in the world :) Thank you for always being there for us, Belle. You are a true friend :) We'll miss you loads. Take care and don't forget to keep in touch with us :)
Ahh... it's been a long journey for you, hasn't it? :) I've known you since... Primary 5? Haha we had so many memories together. You were by far the friendliest person I've ever met in Primary school (because you invited me to your house for Chinese New Year and for projects and stuff ^^) and the most daring. You were always the reliable one, always finishing your project in time and offering to lend us a helping hand when doing group work (Yes, I know me and Sarah are lazy bums :( ). That's just your nature and that's what made you the Belinda we know and love today :) So Belle, for all the times we've hurt you and made you distant yourself from us, we're so sorry. Let's just erase those awful memories, alright? :) but Belle, we just want you to know that you will always be one of the best band presidents ever in the history of St Joe Miri Marching Band, the most garang prefect in our prefectorial board (it's a good thing!), the most cantik and fashionable girl in our group, the most in-your-face chick we've ever met but most of all, the greatest friend in the world :) Thank you for always being there for us, Belle. You are a true friend :) We'll miss you loads. Take care and don't forget to keep in touch with us :)
Back in the pinafore days. The HORROR! D:
Monday, December 3, 2007
Another tag.
I was tagged by Kristine :(
5 THINGS FOUND IN MY BAG
- A pink mirror O.O
- Mascara.
- Earrings.
- Coins.
- Tissue.
5 THINGS FOUND IN MY WALLET
- Cards.
- Scapular.
- Money.
- Necklace chain.
- Part of a metal violin given to me by Chris (sorry dude :( ).
5 THINGS FOUND IN MY ROOM
- Closet. Pink *blech*
- Desk lamp.
- Loads of old books.
- Stuffed toys.
- Pink dressing table haha.
5 THINGS I’VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO
- Get fatter :)
- Go skiing.
- Race with real cars :P (who am I kidding. I can't even drive yet haha)
- Meet Mayday Parade in person :)
- Take a Puak 13 pic (which has never EVER been done)
5 THINGS I’M CURRENTLY INTO
- Mayday Parade :)
- Whose Line Is It Anyway.
- Beaches :D
- Sleeping.
- Onlining.
5 BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE TO TAG
I'm a nice person. I don't tag people yerseh :P
5 THINGS FOUND IN MY BAG
- A pink mirror O.O
- Mascara.
- Earrings.
- Coins.
- Tissue.
5 THINGS FOUND IN MY WALLET
- Cards.
- Scapular.
- Money.
- Necklace chain.
- Part of a metal violin given to me by Chris (sorry dude :( ).
5 THINGS FOUND IN MY ROOM
- Closet. Pink *blech*
- Desk lamp.
- Loads of old books.
- Stuffed toys.
- Pink dressing table haha.
5 THINGS I’VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO
- Get fatter :)
- Go skiing.
- Race with real cars :P (who am I kidding. I can't even drive yet haha)
- Meet Mayday Parade in person :)
- Take a Puak 13 pic (which has never EVER been done)
5 THINGS I’M CURRENTLY INTO
- Mayday Parade :)
- Whose Line Is It Anyway.
- Beaches :D
- Sleeping.
- Onlining.
5 BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE TO TAG
I'm a nice person. I don't tag people yerseh :P
Monday, November 26, 2007
Bye bye, St. Joe. You were good to me ;(
"Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight" x]
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight" x]
Congrats to all SPM-ers for graduating Secondary School!
Monday, November 12, 2007
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