I don't feel like I'm of any use anymore. What's the use of caring if I don't even feel accepted? If I don't even get the same friendly looks I used to get when I was there a few weeks ago? If I don't feel like part of it anymore? If I just feel like some kind of bossy, noisy b*tch yang suka berlagak in front of people?
I guess this is somewhat like retribution.
Maybe I should learn to let go.
Maybe.
Just maybe.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Dewa 19- Pupus
I love this song and it's lyrics :)
Indon songs beat Malaysian ones anyday.
Thanks for the intro, Pol!
Monday, May 28, 2007
Still under construction
My blog isn't completely done yet. I still have a few editing to do and still have to learn how to make my very own custom blogskin.
So how are you? =3
It's been ages since I last blogged and believe me: these past few months have been so rocky I almost fell flat on my face. It's been a tough ride for me but I managed to pull through. There's been a lot of conflicts and a lot of problems lately. Mostly solved, but some are still left hanging. Let's just hope everything turns out well, ya?
Life's been boring. Especially the holidays.
It's been emptier lately. I feel like I'm missing something. And I know exactly what it is: Band. Circumstances caused me to step down from the performing list. I miss it a lot though *sigh*. This is probably retribution for all those mornings I woke up for band complaining that it was too early. Nowadays I wake up late and feel like nothing else can satisfy my boredom. I'd rather wake up at 5am for band practices than to wake up at 10am and do nothing. I miss you, band. But what goes around, comes around. Probably referring to those times when I sort of thought the management wasn't good enough. I guess I didn't know how it felt to be a leader. Now I bet I'm being criticized behind my back for not being there for the band! NoOOooOoOoo! *rips eyeballs out* Damn the bad karma =\
Besides that, our friendships had had it's share of bittersweet moments. Though most matters are settled, it can't remain calm forever. It's probably all those personality differences. Some are strong, some are weak. Some prefer to do this, some prefer to do that. So I'd just like to apologize if anyone was hurt in this 'argument'. Things have changed. People change. And only God knows how and why. Hopefully, it's for the best. But I still hope we'll all remain friends. Hug? :( *hugs*
I need to sleep now. It's close to 1am. Toodle boogle shmoogle!
So how are you? =3
It's been ages since I last blogged and believe me: these past few months have been so rocky I almost fell flat on my face. It's been a tough ride for me but I managed to pull through. There's been a lot of conflicts and a lot of problems lately. Mostly solved, but some are still left hanging. Let's just hope everything turns out well, ya?
Life's been boring. Especially the holidays.
It's been emptier lately. I feel like I'm missing something. And I know exactly what it is: Band. Circumstances caused me to step down from the performing list. I miss it a lot though *sigh*. This is probably retribution for all those mornings I woke up for band complaining that it was too early. Nowadays I wake up late and feel like nothing else can satisfy my boredom. I'd rather wake up at 5am for band practices than to wake up at 10am and do nothing. I miss you, band. But what goes around, comes around. Probably referring to those times when I sort of thought the management wasn't good enough. I guess I didn't know how it felt to be a leader. Now I bet I'm being criticized behind my back for not being there for the band! NoOOooOoOoo! *rips eyeballs out* Damn the bad karma =\
Besides that, our friendships had had it's share of bittersweet moments. Though most matters are settled, it can't remain calm forever. It's probably all those personality differences. Some are strong, some are weak. Some prefer to do this, some prefer to do that. So I'd just like to apologize if anyone was hurt in this 'argument'. Things have changed. People change. And only God knows how and why. Hopefully, it's for the best. But I still hope we'll all remain friends. Hug? :( *hugs*
I need to sleep now. It's close to 1am. Toodle boogle shmoogle!
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