No giving up now...

So you found out today your life's not the same
Not quite as perfect as it was yesterday but
When you were just getting in the groove
Now you're faced with something new
And I know it hurts and I know you feel torn
But you never gave up this easily before
So why do you choose today to give it all away

Well it's not so bad y'all
Together we all fall
Just as long we get up we'll stand tall
We shouldn't waste another day
Thinking 'bout the things that we forgot to say

I'm hittin' back y'all
Kickin' these four walls
Just as hard as I can til I can't crawl
I won't waste another day
With all these silly things
Swimmin' in my brain

[Chorus]
There's no giving up now
Do you really want to give this all away
Can't you ever see things in a different way
Somedays
No giving up now
Such a beautiful thing to throw away
You should think things through
Over and over again
All over again

So your scars fade away
You soaked up the pain
A better person 'cause you lived through those days
And now you know what it's like to prove
You can overcome anything that gets to you
Well it's alright
We're sayin' our goodbyes
To the past and everything that ain't right
We won't waste another day
With all these silly things in our way

[Chorus]

I know we have given
All that we can give
When there's nothing to lean on
Well, I remember this
All we make of this lifetime
Is always here within
And remembering that's why
We should never give in

[Chorus]

There's no giving up now


'Tis a good song when you feel like crap or when your current life's gone bad. Really gives me that extra push to get through another day. Never give up if you truly treasure something, no matter how difficult life gets.

I just wanna get drunk and forget about everything.

Coz' the one thing I loved so much is just not the same anymore.

Yeah I could be over exaggerating.

But one things for sure: They don't understand what we've been through. How we feel. How much we've sacrificed, though in their eyes it could never be enough.

What else can I do, right? I'm already not wanted there. I've been back stabbed. And I practically ruined everyone's mood just by showing up with the intention of helping out, not showing off. I've just been unofficially stripped off my post as a vice. But I don't really care about that.

What I really care about is my friends who are currently busting their ass day and night just to help them improve. And what do they get in return? They just get scolded, back stabbed. I know lah, we're not the best board ever. But give them a break, okay? They're trying. So damn hard. The least you all could do is co-operate just for a few more weeks. Is it really that hard? If there's anything, just confront us lah. How would we/they know if we've/they've done anything wrong if you don't say anything?

I just... I don' t know. It's not the same anymore.

What I ask of you all is simple.

Just co-operate with the remaining seniors.

Maybe I do seem like some kind of traitor for abandoning you all. But I really didn't have a choice. It's fine if I just seem pathetic in your eyes. It's not forgiveness that I seek from all of you.

I just want you to love band, together with the other remaining seniors.

Please don't make it hell for the others. Don't make the senior's last few weeks with you all be the worse they've ever experienced. They love the band, I can assure you. And so do we.

Unity is all that matters now.

So please. Stop all this.

And just help them out.

Please.

So...

I don't feel like I'm of any use anymore. What's the use of caring if I don't even feel accepted? If I don't even get the same friendly looks I used to get when I was there a few weeks ago? If I don't feel like part of it anymore? If I just feel like some kind of bossy, noisy b*tch yang suka berlagak in front of people?

I guess this is somewhat like retribution.

Maybe I should learn to let go.

Maybe.

Just maybe.

Dewa 19- Pupus

I love this song and it's lyrics :)

Indon songs beat Malaysian ones anyday.

Thanks for the intro, Pol!

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My blog isn't completely done yet. I still have a few editing to do and still have to learn how to make my very own custom blogskin.

So how are you? =3

It's been ages since I last blogged and believe me: these past few months have been so rocky I almost fell flat on my face. It's been a tough ride for me but I managed to pull through. There's been a lot of conflicts and a lot of problems lately. Mostly solved, but some are still left hanging. Let's just hope everything turns out well, ya?

Life's been boring. Especially the holidays.

It's been emptier lately. I feel like I'm missing something. And I know exactly what it is: Band. Circumstances caused me to step down from the performing list. I miss it a lot though *sigh*. This is probably retribution for all those mornings I woke up for band complaining that it was too early. Nowadays I wake up late and feel like nothing else can satisfy my boredom. I'd rather wake up at 5am for band practices than to wake up at 10am and do nothing. I miss you, band. But what goes around, comes around. Probably referring to those times when I sort of thought the management wasn't good enough. I guess I didn't know how it felt to be a leader. Now I bet I'm being criticized behind my back for not being there for the band! NoOOooOoOoo! *rips eyeballs out* Damn the bad karma =\

Besides that, our friendships had had it's share of bittersweet moments. Though most matters are settled, it can't remain calm forever. It's probably all those personality differences. Some are strong, some are weak. Some prefer to do this, some prefer to do that. So I'd just like to apologize if anyone was hurt in this 'argument'. Things have changed. People change. And only God knows how and why. Hopefully, it's for the best. But I still hope we'll all remain friends. Hug? :( *hugs*

I need to sleep now. It's close to 1am. Toodle boogle shmoogle!

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