Back then

Have you ever wanted to just go back in time; just retrace your steps and relive every second of your past?

I'm sure we all have. I just seem to be doing that very often nowadays.

And it's not like I'm having an awful time where I am now. In fact, I'm living very comfortably here in Perth. Honestly, I have always felt very blessed to be here, to have met all of my wonderful friends and to have let myself experience and try things I've never bothered doing back home. I do love it here, but I can't help but look back once in a while. And when I do, I start to miss everything I once had. From the comfort of home; being surrounded by family and friends that I've known for almost a decade now, to getting out of that comfort zone and stepping into college life in Inti; experiencing freedom for the very first time with people that I will never forget. I miss it all and it's sad that every time I look back, the memories start to become more vague. If I had a chance, I would go back and just relive them so they would never fade.

I understand that life goes on and looking back ever so often will only leave me stagnant, but it's hard not to miss and yearn for the things that have made such a big impact in your life; things that make you smile every time you think about them.

Memories are there to remind us that life is worth living, that love is worth pursuing and that friendship is worth keeping. I will always remember those of you who have been such a big part of my life, especially those who have brought me closer to God. Because when I feel like I've lost my way, I think back to how I used to feel when I was close to Him.

And it's all thanks to you, all of you who were part of my journey before.

Another day, another chapter

I'm finding it hard to focus on studying now so just a quick update.

The end of the first half of my year in uni is almost over, with my final exams just a week away. I still find myself procrastinating a lot and having to beat myself up mentally in order to get my skinny butt seated still and my eyes locked and focused on the lecture notes. Doesn't last long though; 5-10 minutes tops and then my mind would wander elsewhere for a couple more minutes. This basically goes on for a while until I get fed up and decide to look for random videos on Youtube or obsessively check my Twitter and Tumblr for updates. Much like right now. Except that I've decided to update this sad excuse for a blog.

I'm honestly finding the units pretty tough this year, with the insane amount of material we are expected to absorb and the sheer depth of the topics. I'm not saying it's impossible because, honestly, anyone can snag a HD or two with these units, as long as they have enough self-discipline to study; which is something I've always lacked, as you can see. I'm hoping I'll get a decent mark though. I've never been a HD kind of student and Ds are starting to get more and more out of reach. Oh well. Just have to do what I can.

I think that's enough self pity for today. Toodles.

3 years and all you get is a stupid blog post. You're welcome.

Hey there :) It's been a while. And I know no one will ever read this blog ever again ever since I abandoned it a few years back, but heck, here's to the good old days.

I've been through a lot these past few years and I accept the way I turned out; definitely different from how I was back then. But I can't help but want to go back. The nostalgia I feel every time I read old blog posts or browse through pictures from way back when, makes me want to cry. Every single time. What is it about those days that I love and miss so much?

I believe it's because back then, I lived. I lived life doing the things I love with the people I love. I skipped school, played around during exam months and didn't study for nuts. Honestly, I wasn't a bad kid even though I did those things. I just prioritized friends over studies. And life was good. Life was fun and lived how I wanted it to and I can honestly say, I look back with no regrets (even though all my exam results were terrible. Stay in school, kids. And do your homework).

What's life if you live it with no heart? Ten years from now, I want to look back and actually miss Perth and Uni the way I miss Kuching and Miri. It's never too late to start living while you're still breathing. And boy, do I want to start.

xoxo (are they still doing this on blogs? lol),

Grace :)

Goodbye :)

Well I'm leaving in 12 hours. I won't be updating while I'm there though. Sorry :\

This blog is DEAD D:

*sobs* see you all when I get back to Miri. And thanks to Kristine and Sarah for the dedication posts :)

p/s: To the puak: I'll miss you guys loads when I leave :( Ciaoz!

David Cook- Always Be My Baby

David Cook rocks. Best arrangement for Mariah Carey week :)

Note: If it doesn't appear, click on the invisible box once.

22nd post. Sad.

I haven't blogged in more than a month. I wonder if anyone still reads this blog :\

Anyways, Sarah's back :) She was supposed to come back on 6th of April, but she came back earlier for the JPA interview ( You'll get it lah, moi. Don't worry :) )

Sarah: Hello?
Me: Hello?
Sarah: Hellooo?
Me: Uhh...
Sarah: You know who is this or not?
Me: Um... Sarah?
Sarah: Yeah HEHEHEHEEHEHE! Look at the phone number!
Me: Ha?
Sarah: The phone number! What am I using to call you?
Me: Um.. house phone- OMG you're back?!
Sarah: (laughs excitedly) Yeah~

Damn her for surprising me like that :P We actually had a sleepover at Cat's house and I invited her to come and surprise Cat and Pol, but she was tired and she had stuff to prepare for the interview that Tuesday. Ah well, we managed to surprise Cat and Pol anyway :) We went to visit the band and stuff (no comment) and went out with Pol, Cat and Wan 3 days in a row. Fuyoh. Damn tired lah after that. But it was worth it. We had lots of fun :) Met up with Lydia on the third day. She's so cantik lah. I want her nose :( We watched Spiderwick. It was er... kinda cute I guess, but the acting was pretty bad. Shortly after that we camwhored and Lydia gave us a massage. She learned the technique from weeks of hairwashing at Michael's salon :D We went to the beach on the second day and soaked our knees in the water. The water was surprisingly super clear. When we were knee-deep in the water, we could still see the sand beneath our feet. Omg. Tanjung is finally oil and muck free :) As we soaked our feet in the clear clear Tanjung waters ( Jordan, dun jealous, ya? :) ), we talked about the past and how we used to have so much fun in a big group, throwing each other into the water, getting soaked from head to toe and laughing till our sides hurt.

I miss my friends :( They're the only ones who can make me laugh at their stupid theories and sarcasm because it's just so ridiculous. They're the only ones who offer hugs when I feel down. They're the only ones who can get me out of my comfort zone, act like an idiot and not care about what other people think. Hopefully by the end of the year, we'd all be together again, all 13 of us, making lame jokes that only we laugh at and singing stupid songs that we made up with our 'creativity'. Ish. Miss you guys :(

Suddenly lost my mood to blog. Ugh. Now I can't wait to go to Inti. The faster the better.

God bless.

ZOMFG I found it :)

I can't seem to find the lyrics though. Oh well. Enjoy :)